Cardio and Sirius...a Lovely Marriage...

I exercise most mornings. And when I do I listen to my Sirius satellite radio.

I usually flip between Sirius Hits 1 (which plays the new pop hits)...the 70's channel...and the 80's channel...

Yesterday, just as I finished the workout the song "Down" by Jay Sean started. I was a little disappointed because I love that song...but I needed to move on with my day. So I turned the radio off.

This morning...I got dressed for my regular workout...I turned on the Sirius radio...switched it to Hits 1...

...and guess which song was just starting...

Guess. I'll wait.

"Down" by Jay Sean.


How's THAT for synchronicity and continuity?!?!



SIDENOTE:

Some songs are better to workout to than others. Here are a couple faves that I moved to today...

"Love Drunk" by Boys Like Girls


"21 Guns" by Green Day

Lois Forletta 5/22/1918 - 11/21/2009...

My maternal grandmother passed away yesterday. She was 91 years old...and she had dementia for the last 11 months. She lived with my parents for the last 4 years...and she was very well loved and cared for.


Lois Forletta was one tough broad. And funny. She made a mean spaghetti sauce.

There's been a lot of death in my family's world over the last couple years. My parents have spent most of that time care taking, first my sister and then my grandmother. It's time they got a break.

I love you, grandma...

Vaccinated...

After much research and debate...I decided to receive the H1N1 vaccine. Since I have asthma I am considered high risk...I'm coming down on the side of safety.


My doctor's office called this morning saying they had the vaccine...

I went right away...

The deed is done.

It's in my body.

I'm confident it was the correct choice for me.

I divorced Facebook...

I deleted my Facebook account about a week ago.

I gave it a good try...I really did...

I uploaded pictures and video...I commented on the posts and photos of others...I connected with a few people from my past.

I even talked Mark into joining.


But...

Over time I’ve been very frustrated by the prevalence of one-way communication. Some of my 450+ “friends” did respond and keep in touch, but a huge majority seemed content to ignore all communication. Actually, I don’t know if they ignored it...they very well could have read it...but having received no replies I can’t be sure.

Life is now so full of one-way data from the net...TV...radio...that I find myself losing the human connection. And while until recently I was proud to be one of those 40-somethings that could keep up with the tech trends and be flexible...I have to now say that I need to hang onto SOME old-school behaviors. And by "behavior" I mean people actually keeping in touch with each other. I know it's a lot to ask...and I've been told over and over that "not everyone is like you Daya". Despite that, I know how I feel...and the lack of connectedness in my world makes me feel sad.

I cherish and value communication…especially from people I consider friends...but I have to finally admit that Facebook is not the place for me to get that need fulfilled.

I found myself feeling down when visiting the site...but I kept doing it.

So...in an effort to clear my head of too much unnecessary info...I have come to accept my limitation and I said goodbye to my Facebook presence. I believe all the people who wanted to find me have found me and I them. So...Facebook and I are done. And it’s time to move on.

It has not been as hard staying away from it as I feared it might be...so I guess I can be confident that I am not a Facebook-aholic...

Also, there are no children involved, so I believe the divorce will be amicable and smooth.

And by the way...not a single person has commented on my absence...so I’m sure I won’t be missed.

It’s a relief.

P.S. I also closed my Twitter account, but having hardly used it, I don't think that merits more than this sentence. Maybe not even that. In fact, ignore this sentence.



NOTE (added 11.25): I was just reminded by my oldest friend in the world, Kelly Scarpelli, that she certainly noticed I was missing from Facebook. I should have worded that sentence a little differently, I took some poetic license.

A little validation...

Here’s a page from the life lesson that says “Your insecurity is unfounded and here’s why.”

A number of years ago, when I was still performing, I often did auditions for on-camera gigs. One very odd audition was for World Savings Bank in Oakland. I drove all the way up there…found parking…found the building…the office…

It was a small conference room with a single person and a camera. I was asked to improv and situation I can’t quite remember…something about being a bank customer who creates some problem for the teller.

Now…I’ve never been comfortable with improv. I usually freak out a little. I go overboard.

In short, it’s usually a major cringe-worthy experience for me.

So…I do this audition…and I felt terrible about it. I was not surprised I never got a call afterward…and I’ve worked hard even since to put it out of my mind.

Fast forward to one day last week. I believe it was last Wednesday the 11th. At some point during the afternoon…for no reason at all…that audition flashed through my mind. I didn’t dwell on it except to acknowledge that I probably was chasing the wrong dream with those auditions since I did so poorly. I shuddered remembering the feeling I had during and after that bad bad bad audition. And then I went on with my day.


Sidenote: I have a cell phone, but I only carry it to make urgent calls while I’m out. It’s usually in my purse and I rarely even look at it, so I often do not get voicemail messages until a day or so late. But, not many people even know that number, let alone use it anymore, so it’s not a problem.

Back to last week…now on Friday…

I had just taken my cell phone off the charger and was putting it back in my purse. I turned the phone on and noticed that the red light was blinking, indicating that I had a voicemail. I called to get the message and here’s what I heard:

“Hi. This is a message for David Curley. I’m formally a video producer at World Savings. You had auditioned for us for a video production as an actor, and we liked your audition and we kept your information, and I’m no longer with World Savings but I am doing video production for companies in the Bay Area, and if you’re still available for acting work I’d love to talk to you. Please give me a call…”

The message was left last Wednesday the 11th at 10:50am.

HUH?!?!

It’s a gracious little gift from the Universe. It means that any torment I slathered upon myself over a “bad audition” was wasted energy. I’m grateful to know I didn’t suck.

I think the key now is to learn how to overcome that kind of insecure feeling without NEEDING that validation. It’s nice to have validation, but most of the time that will not be available.