The week in-between...
I can't believe Christmas is over already. I just didn't connect to it this year like I usually do. Maybe part of that was a form of self protection so the pain of missing my sister didn't get too intense.
And now I feel my mind turning to a new year in a big way. While Christmas didn't hit me as hard this year, think the New Year will hit me harder than usual. 2008 was a year of challenges and gifts. How do you describe a year that delivers not only the worst thing to ever happen to you...but also some of the best things?
It's not a "good" year...but certainly an Important one.
Here's to a happy new one for all of us.
I have a good feeling about it.
And now I feel my mind turning to a new year in a big way. While Christmas didn't hit me as hard this year, think the New Year will hit me harder than usual. 2008 was a year of challenges and gifts. How do you describe a year that delivers not only the worst thing to ever happen to you...but also some of the best things?
It's not a "good" year...but certainly an Important one.
Here's to a happy new one for all of us.
I have a good feeling about it.
posted by Daya Curley at
11:33 AM
1 Comments:
I know your pain Daya. Back in '03 nine days before I started my own transition, my brother Jon had a massive stroke and passed from this world into the next moments after spendingmost of the night and morning helping calm me down. I was living in hell at the time, and Jon was really the only person at the time I had to talk to. Actually he was the only person I had left to talk to really. Earl (my now late husband) had stripped the rest of them away from my life by issolating me and keeping me from the world.
So '03 wasn't very good for me either, yet at the same time, it was amazing. Nine days after I lost Jon, I started coming out. First to his widow (my SIL) and then the rest of the world. I jumped into transition as one would jump from a sinking ship into a lifeboat.
I still look back on the loss of my brother as a time of great pain, especially since he never got to know his sister. But the start of my journey toward real true freedom is a memory of great comfort and fondness. That they should happen within days of each other? No, not really a coindedence. I'd already lost my husband and the rest of my life through his bullshit, and then to lose Jon, well that just put me over the edge and made me syre that life was all at once too short, and too long, to continue that charade any longer.
So no, not a "good" year, but yes, important.
God & Goddess willing, 2010 will be a much, much better year for all of us!
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